My mind is almost constantly running in a thousand directions at a ridiculous speed. It’s like a merry-go-round on steroids; everything flying around so fast I can’t properly think about anything in particular. Last week my mind ranged from hyper to clogged to empty, and I didn’t know why.
One of my dearest friends asked me how I was doing, and I told her that sometimes I think I’m losing my sanity. She encouraged me to talk to someone about it. My first thought was, I don’t know whom I would talk to. My second and perhaps more revealing thought was, I don’t have a clue what I’d say. If I don’t know what I’m feeling or thinking, how am I supposed to explain it to someone else? And how can someone help me if I can’t tell them what I need?
While I was driving home, I took the time to analyze things a bit. There were a few small things that I was dealing with, as well as one main issue I was subconsciously struggling with that became clearer as I focused on it.
Inferiority. Worthlessness. Lies from the enemy.
I felt like I could disappear and there would be very few people who would care and a lot of people who would be relieved. I wanted to be wanted, not just needed.
Then I had a thought come to me, which I’m sure was sent from the Lord. Maybe God created me because he liked the idea of a ‘me’. Maybe He wants a relationship with me because He likes me. He likes the way I think, and all the things that make me, me. Maybe He didn’t just create me to fulfill a purpose. Maybe He created me because, when He was thinking about my personality, and my nature, and my very essence– my character, the indispensable quality of who I am–He smiled.
Somehow the thought that God likes me was incredibly comforting, especially considering the fact that He thought me up! It takes away some of the sting of how I perceive how others think of me. After all, I didn’t make me, God did. So if I’m feeling insecure, I can remember that. And if people truly don’t like me, they can complain to God about it. My responsibility is to be the best version of me that I can be, and let God enjoy me without hearing me complain about the way he made me.
Maybe now like is so stronger than love. And God liking us so much is why he made the earth..
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Ahhh… this is so beautiful! ❤ Just the thought that He likes me and wants a relationship with me is so thrilling. Oh, and Beth? I like you a lot, too.😘🤗
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I really, really like this. Great thought. And beautiful cards!
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